Good day

I am writing to you as a prisoner a prisoner to myself. For some unknown reason i have a serious problem with anxiety its actually got so bad that i can barely leave my house without feeling sick. I cannot eat out at restaurants because the anxiety affects my bowel movements and i have a constant urge to always use the toilet. It is not easy for me to discuss this with you as its quite an embarrassing topic for me. My worse symptoms are loss of appetite,constant stomach pains, and endless nights of sleep. I have tried normal medication and the affects just seem to get worse.

I started smoking dagga and basically all that i can say is it helped me so much i can now live my life i am so happy for once.

The only thing that triggers off my anxiety now is actually getting caught with dagga which is illegal in south Africa . as a law abiding citizen that i am i do not want to live in constant fear of the police coming and arresting me. I don’t want to stop smoking dagga because i really believe it makes a difference in my life. I also recently bought dagga which when i smoked made my mouth and lips completely numb soon after that i realized that it was laced with doom. 

How is it possible for me to maintain legal and safe dagga as i believe that this is the cure for me nobody knows my body and how i feel like i do. 

I have heard that medicinal weed is legal in south Africa would it be possible if you could assist me in anyway possible as i no longer want to disobey the law.